My goal is to heal, recover,and fogive myself from a past in

Travis Nell Start Date: Feb 19, 2025 - End Date: Aug 18, 2025
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My Travel Story

by: Travis Nell Start Date: Feb 19, 2025 - End Date: Aug 18, 2025
  • Educational/Research Trip
  • Leadership/Training Program
  • Vacation/Personal Trip
So I spent the last 20 years suffering from a severe heroin and methamphetamine addiction I was a ivy drug user I endured numerous jaill stays at facilities mental hospitals homelessness and a lot of relationship damage to myself also my two sons which I ended up with full custody of due to their mother's addiction issues which I did get sober and help raise them until they graduated and are out on their own but then I fell back into addiction I had a lot of abuses a child my father was very emotionally and physically abusive that was part of the issues that contributed to me self-medicating it was a coping mechanism I learned at a very young age and it worked for a long time until things escalated and it stopped working so on this journey I did a lot of psychedelics in my day and what I used to think we're so called bad trips back in the day as I became older I realized how much healing had occurred on some of those trips where it showed me things that were very uncomfortable and emotional which I walked away with a lot of healing and self-acceptance and self love well a popular thing right now that is being practiced in ancient cultures throughout Mexico and Amazon is Ayahuasca it's very healing substance you are guided by a shaman through a process of an emotional journey which most people claim it to be life changing experience and come back a different person the other aspect of this trip there is a another natural medicine which is called ibogaine 96% of heroin users who received two doses of ibogaine never go back to drugs again it has a miraculous ability to reset your brain chemicals your serotonin and dopamine levels to where they were at prediction within 48 hours of use the hardest thing about sobriety is it takes nearly 18 months for your mind to even start to heal and feel normal and it's a very uncomfortable process which has led to a lot of depression and struggles for me emotionally it's made it very difficult to stay clean when my habits typically are to self medicate and find some sense of comfort within myself through substances so the goal of my trip is I desperately want to find healing and give myself the best possible chance to never look back on that life and to also be able to become an advocate for those still suffering from addiction that maybe my story and my healing and the love I find for myself may impact others and allow them to see my growth and healing as a way out for themselves and more importantly to me I never want to let my sons down again and if these substances can allow me in 96% chance of never having to return to that hell I would be forever grateful to have the experience to allow me to heal and find love and forgiveness for the person that I am the mistakes I have made in my addiction but more personally the man I'm working so hard and striving to become and get to know within myself.