My name is Aman, and I am from India. My life has been a series of challenges and hardships, starting with the loss of my parents at a young age. I was raised by relatives, and despite the difficulties, I managed to complete my schooling while living with them. Upon finishing school, I made a firm decision to become self-reliant. I returned to my hometown, found a job, and continued my studies through distance learning.

For a time, I managed to keep going, focusing on my work and studies. However, the loneliness and isolation began to take a toll on me. I became deeply depressed and yearned for companionship. In an attempt to alleviate my loneliness, I turned to a social app, hoping to find a temporary friend. I didn't seek a permanent relationship, as I feared the pain of losing someone I grew attached to.

On the app, I met Jita, a high school student from Indonesia. Despite our initial differences and frequent arguments due to her stubbornness, anger, and ego, I found myself falling for her. I accepted her flaws and never asked for more than her companionship. Our relationship was turbulent, but I was willing to accept blame for our fights just to keep her in my life. She assured me of her love and promised never to leave me.

However, on December 3, 2023, after a particularly intense argument, Jita stopped communicating with me entirely. She turned off her phone, leaving me feeling helpless and desperate. In my distress, I reached out to her friends and cousin, but was told that she did not want to return because I had embarrassed her.

This event shattered my life. I lost my job, incurred significant debt, and my mental health deteriorated. I found myself messaging her from different numbers daily, only to be blocked each time. My mind is now in a state of constant unrest, and I am overwhelmed by depression and loneliness. Despite my numerous attempts, I have been unable to summon the strength to end my life.

Now, I have only one wish: to meet Jita in person and seek closure. However, financial constraints make this impossible. We live in different countries—she in Indonesia, and I in India. I am reaching out to anyone who might be able to help me fulfill this wish. Any assistance, no matter how small, would mean the world to me. Please, if you can, help me find peace and closure in this turbulent chapter of my life.
Thanks


I am writing this message with the help of GPT. Because My English is not good.
i tell my story to GPT in my mother language Hindi