For a long time I feel that my life is ruled by a huge stagnation that I cannot break in any way. I live day by day but this life is really gray. Honestly, I've tried a lot of things to bring some color in, but all the plans have failed. 

I've never been a very open person, but I decided to change that a few years ago. What previously seemed to be an image in the distance has become real.
I was building up my confidence slowly and talking to people more and more. I even tried to follow my hobby. However, this was still not enough, and the only thing that kept me from the abyss was dreams that I might or might not have realized in the future. This uncertainty makes me lose my way and I don't know what to do next.
One day I decided to take decisive steps. That's why I'm here too. One of my dreams, or actually two dreams that come together, is to write a book that would give joy to others, and a book with illustrations for the youngest, which would be an inspiration for their future.
I have always been in love with Asian countries. Especially Japan and China. I have never been outside of Europe, but I decided that if I ever left, Asia would be the first destination. I would like to go there, to find a spark for igniting my life. Experience things that I could only think about before. Learn something new. Admiring the beautiful place, learning about historical curiosities and legends I would like to meet people who would bring a breath of fresh air to my thinking or just make new friends.. And experience a story that I could later transfer to paper. A story with a hint of fantasy and a valuable message.
My journey would not be so ordinary. Staying in places where good people would let me stay in return for helping them in their daily life, sleep under the open sky or where my fate carries me. The difficulties faced with such a challenge are irrelevant. I would travel until I felt that it was enough and it was time to go home. A  month, year, two or five. I don't know. 
I have the impression that such an emotional journey would be a huge blow to my perception of myself and the world around me.
That's why I want to break out of this cage and not regret wasting my life on eternal depression. It's finally time to throw mediocrity out of life.
I have some savings that I would use for this trip. However, this is not a huge amount, and with monthly expenses, I will not change much in this matter. I know that such a venture is not cheap. Especially since in the beginning it will certainly not be easy and it will be a while before I find myself and my own path. After all, I still want to try.
I would like to give this story a slightly different dimension and publish it as regular video reports on YouTube. For this I need a good quality phone or camera and some gimbal style stabilizer Such a diary would be a reward for the Supporters, but also memories for me. It sure would be something special. 
This is exactly why I am asking you all for help! And... perhaps someone will hear my call.