Help Me See The Love Of My Life

Jesse H Start Date: Apr 20, 2017 - End Date: Aug 31, 2017
  • Los Angeles, CA, United States of America

My Travel Story

by: Jesse H Start Date: Apr 20, 2017 - End Date: Aug 31, 2017
My name is Jesse, and I'm in love, madly in love. I have been in a long distance (Australia/USA) romantic relationship with my current boyfriend for the past few months, and have known him for the past three years.

We met online, and got to talking. After three years being friends, videos and voice calls, opening up to one another, we decided to start dating, and it's been great. Really great.

But there's one thing about the love of my life you need to know. He's a drug addict. I wasn't sure if I should put that in here, but I need to be upfront with you, and honest. I know a lot of you will probably turn away now, just after learning about that... But you have to understand, my love for him is so strong that it doesn't phase me. He was young, and stupid. He got manipulated by an ex and coaxed into doing it.

I ordinarily would turn anyone with that kind of problem away, because I don't like letting that kind of negativity into my life, but for the first time, when he told me about his problem, it didn't bother me. I mean, of course I was "bothered", but I stood my ground.

I found out about his problem one time he was opening up to me. He was off, and didn't seem himself. He told me about how he had a sugar coat exterior that makes him seem sweet, and inside he's just layer after layer of darkness, with one little piece of light all the way in the centre. When he told me that, I just didn't believe him. I absolutely refused to believe that and I told him "I don't believe for a second any of that is true." He was crashing, from a high he was on so he was depressed, and at a very low point. I just wanted to show him the good inside of him, all the light I saw that he couldn't.

I didn't know what it was that I was feeling at the time, but after much thought I realised what I was feeling.

Love.

I loved him, and it was because I loved him that I stood my ground, and I refused to leave his side. I WILL NOT let him go, and give up on him. Some of you might think that's stupid of me, but love conquers all. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I gave up on him, and the love we share.

I'm currently saving up to see my darling in September, but it's slow, and with what I'm saving I won't make it in time. He needs me there, he needs my love, my support, my help. I can't help him anywhere near as much as I could from where I am, 7,000+ miles away. I absolutely hate asking people for money, so this was a last resort for me. I'm desperate. I'm trying to do everything I possibly can to get there as soon as I can for him. Multiple jobs, and now asking for help. Please.

The money I'm trying to raise would cover my round trip ticket, travel insurance, my passport (I've never left Australia, so I haven't needed one), and living expenses. I'm not travelling to the US to go partying or spending massive amounts of money on shopping or meals. I just want to go for him, to be with him.

In short, after the plane tickets, the money is for living expenses and to act as a security blanket, in case anything were to go horribly wrong. It's important to stay safe.

 

It would mean so much to me if I could go see my baby, and be with the man I love. He's my world, and he needs me there. He needs to see me, my face, the love in my eyes and the warmth in my touch.

I would be eternally grateful, and I'm not just saying that for show. I honestly would be so grateful, and I truly believe what goes around comes around. I try to help people where I can, but there's only so much I can do on a personal level. I totally get that a lot of us are in that situation, where you want to do more but can only do so much. Anything and everything is appreciated, truly.

 

Thank you for offering me your time.
  • Los Angeles, CA, United States of America