For Apology and Love

Kiru Chan Start Date: Jul 28, 2015 - End Date: Nov 24, 2015
  • Wales, United Kingdom

My Travel Story

by: Kiru Chan Start Date: Jul 28, 2015 - End Date: Nov 24, 2015
Hi, my name is Jordan, but my nickname is Kiru. I'm 26 and have lived in the US my whole life, but fell in love with someone across the world. We have never met in person, but would Skype video call every day and fall asleep/wake up together. We watched movies together, he played guitar and I sang, and he even taught me how to cook something on the stove without burning the house down(gasp!). I had never been in a long distance relationship like this before, but it made me truly happy. That picture above is the smile he put on my face every day, even when my struggles with depression were rough.

This probably won't be well received, but is the reason why I am asking for help. Only a few months into the relationship I cheated on him with my ex who I had had a very hard time getting away from. It was a toxic relationship and it took all of my energy to move out and into a bedroom of a friend. I told him about what I did right away and he was heartbroken, as was I. We couldn't figure out how to overcome this and build trust when trust was what the relationship solely depended on. I am grateful that he is still my friend, and we talk, but certainly not like before.

We would always joke or fantasize about me just showing up one day, callin him on skype to inform him I'm at the airport waiting on him. That image has stuck with me ever since, and I even dream about it. I don't know if he will forgive me even in person, and that is terrifying, but I need to know. I need to apologize to him face to face and let him know that I loved him with all my heart.


If anyone can help me do this, I will be forever in your debt. I promise to keep you updated during the process of getting a passport to the moment I land. :)

Thankyou for taking the time to read my story.

Sincerely,

Kiru
  • Wales, United Kingdom