Grant my wish?

Russell potocki Start Date: Dec 23, 2022 - End Date: Jun 22, 2023
  • Kissimmee, Florida, United States of America

My Travel Story

by: Russell potocki Start Date: Dec 23, 2022 - End Date: Jun 22, 2023
Hello my name is Russell and I am a developmentally and mentally ill disabled person suffering from a serious and severe crippling anxiety and stress disorders as well as PTSD and depression. I also have Dyslexic, Dyscalculia, and obsessive compulsive disorder with mild symptoms. as well as a behavioral disorder characterized by anger excessive talking and sometime the unusual or inappropriate behavior which I don't notice I am doing. Not to mention the anguishing physical disabilities I possess, first and most severe is ankylosing spondylitis or A.S for short, a debilitating physical disability effecting bones, joints, and organs scariest of all effected organs is the heart, I also have IBD or inflamed bowel disease I won't tell you anymore about that one! And lastly but most painful is gerd or it's proper name being gastroesophageal reflux disease, this All Stems from years and years of serious childhood trauma and abuse, I was sexually abused and tormented by both my parents as well as 1 of my uncle's, From birth till I was 10 when I was finally rescued, I was found in the basement of my house wrapped in a towel after my biological father stabbed me with a knife in my stomach 6 times, I was malnourished and emaciated, when I was brought to the hospital it was discovered that I had lead poisoning which led to weeks in the hospital and a few blood transfusions, after I recovered I was put into boys homes where the abuse basically continued, boys homes back then we're not the therapeutic environment they are today. Staff was just hired off the street,no formal training was given to staff, so staff would hit you, kick you, restrain you for zero reason, scream at, swear at, and often just didn't care. This had a large effect on my psychosis and how I am today. I was basically thrown out like trash and treated just the same, I wish I could say life has improved but unfortunately I now suffer everyday from flashbacks, panic attacks, sleep disorders, night terrors and unfortunately I feel guilt over the abuse I suffered. (Weird I know, I'm not even sure why) Not to mention the physical symptoms I go through from constant sweating to the severe migraines and please don't get me started on the digestive issues I have due to both my mental conditions as well as the daily stress I actually go through, Due to the traumatic abuse I suffered. And now with the arrival of COVID 19 that is really exasperating my anxiety and depression, I recently tried to purchase my first home, but due to my little finances that died like my soul. life is almost too much. I don't have any money, I barely have clothing and food, (I didn't eat last night so my wife could) I could not afford Christmas presents for my family. I live on a extremely low income and only have my disability check and that goes to bills and rent. I am contacting you to see if you have any free products or gift certificates you could offer me? I would even except a charitable gift of monetary value at this point. (I hate even talking about money, it's just so crass) I feel like I can't take care of the things a man is supposed to and it is painful to my heart, which just adds another layer to my mental illness. Unfortunately I live in a extremely rural area in a small town in Vermont, where there are very little resourses for adults in my situation. I can supply proof of income and disability if needed, I have a award letter from SSI a phycologist note, and almost any other documents you may require. I truly hope this comes across as I mean it to, I am not trying to beg or deceive.Any help you could offer would be appreciated and I would be forever grateful and on your dept. Thank you for taking the time to read this. I appreciate the time you took to read my story (I know it is a long one) and maybe it will help someone else one day.
  • Kissimmee, Florida, United States of America