Regaining physical/mental strength to fight my depression

David Kärger Start Date: Sep 17, 2024 - End Date: Jan 16, 2025
  • Leadership/Training Program
  • Professional Development
  • Vacation/Personal Trip
  • Thailand

My Travel Story

by: David Kärger Start Date: Sep 17, 2024 - End Date: Jan 16, 2025
  • Leadership/Training Program
  • Professional Development
  • Vacation/Personal Trip
Hi, my name is David.

I'm 30 years old from Germany, I've always worked hard within my life at my job as a software engineer. A heavy depression caused me losing my wife, my ability to work, my home and periodically my will to even move on from here.

Currently I'm at the point of dragging myself out of this whole nightmare I'm stuck in. Currently I'm receiving money from the health insurance of course, most of the money is being used to pay my outstanding debts that have been caused by not being able to handle my life properly during the last 9 months. I'm also having job interviews and I really want to get back into a full time job by January/February 2025.

I'm still having one big wish before I get back into the "career". I want to get back my physical and mental strength by staying abroad in a Muay Thai fight camp. I want to get back control over my emotions and release stress by giving it into the sport instead of pointing it against myself by impulsive self-harm. I've been to therapy already before but I'm always losing the fight against myself by falling back into my current environment.

That's why I want to cut ties with my current surrounding for a period of 3 months, I want to become the person I've used to be before all of that happened. After coming back I want to have the new job, have the mental strength to use my energy properly and be alive again within my community.

I'm also planning to give back every donation (towards the donator or some other campaign, whatever is possible) as soon as my debts are paid off and I can start to save up some money again from my job. I don't wanna go on a free vacation, I want to make the final step, go into the fight camp, take part at a competition and win against my demons before the downwards spiral continues. I'll also gladly keep everyone who is interested updated on the journey, I can also provide my medical documents to prove my condition, it just means so much to me to free myself before going back into my "normal life".

It is not easy for me to "beg" for money, but after sitting here for multiple days without any alternative way to reach out for help I'm just pulling the trigger and starting the campaign, at least I can say I've tried by doing so.
  • Thailand