I'm a Gentleman, with old school morals and values who in the past made some dumb decisions and mistakes, I paid my dues for them now I'm trying my best but it's hard ... I've done forty yrs. Incarcerated for those decisions which left me with no ",life skills"... I'm also a proud man and don't like to "ask for help" , makes me feel less of a man and I don't like feeling like that....